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“when was the last time you wanted to say it all to the right person? to have it all come out right, to surprise yourself at how together you could be. when was the last time you ever met someone who made you want to give it all to them? i mean give yourself to them. where you couldn’t express yourself enough - like you wanted to cut off one of your arms to be understood. that’s it - you would cut your head off to have someone understand you.you know how pointless that one is. you know how many times you’ve smashed yourself to bits on the rocks.”